{52 Weeks} Week 38: I’ve Cracked It!

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I have long been a buyer and luster of things for ‘later’ , for ‘when I’ve lost the weight’. Over the years I have hung quite a few gorgeous dresses in my wardrobe as motivation. To inspire me. And they’ve hung there. Mocking me. Making me question why I wasn’t doing more to fit into such a garment, causing guilt until I move the offending piece to a place I can no longer see it and feel the burning shame.

Most of the things I have acquired in my misguided attempt to force myself to get fit, healthy (and hot) have ended up in the clothes bin at the Salvos.

Getting married, buying a house and having children has meant I’ve not had the money to fund this habit of mine, instead I have looked wistfully at garments and, instead of buying them in my size I think ‘I will come back once I’ve done what I need to do.’ Once I am the size I want to be and carry on wearing my holey shirts, daggy pants and stretched skirts.

Because of my PND I started wearing colours to lift my spirits and then through a day in the life of us, where the ever lovely Kymmie blogs and her weekly fancy pants link up I was inspired to shop for an outfit. In my size.

Since that day I have been making more of an effort. When I go out I wear one of my nice new pieces of clothing or some bling. I pop on some mascara and lip gloss and some days I even ‘put my face on’. It’s just been something I’ve been doing and I have been enjoying it.

Then, on Thursday I had a revelation. I felt good. And feeling good motivated me to pull on my runners and take the children for a walk. Inspired me to put on a Zumba DVD and shake my butt (off).

Turns out that feeling good makes you want to continue to do so, which inspires you to do things that will make you feel better. Who knew? And why didn’t they tell me?

All these years, while I have been encouraging my children positively, I have been trying to encourage myself through various negative ways which simply backfire (mind blowing, I know). Why did I think that making myself feel bad about not being a certain size would get me moving? Pure craziness.

And there you have it, I’ve cracked the mind/body mental barrier. Well, mine, anyway. It is spectacular to realise that being good to myself will lead to me feeling good and, eventually I will feel great. Maybe even amazing.

I will work on becoming healthier and accepting that I will always have curves. Why hide them? After all, some women pay tonnes of money to be boobielicious…right?

Right?
My new Vintage Camera necklace. Love it

So, this week I am hugely grateful for Kymmie, dressing up and moments of clarity.

Now I need to find an income to fund this new fancy pants life πŸ˜‰

9 Comments

  1. Becky – You are AMAZING! I hope that it doesn't take you long to realise that πŸ™‚

    PS – Happy to take a little bit of your boobilicious for you!!!

  2. Iread something this week about just what your talking about. It's evidently very true – you need to be kind to yourself if you want to loose weight. Loving your revelation Becky – go you!!!!

  3. Yay Becky – that is an awesome revelation!! You Go girl.

  4. Well done, Becky. I've started blogging about my weight loss journey and have found the more I exercise, the more I enjoy it.
    So, enjoy it!

    http://doodahsblog.blogspot.com/2011/04/new-journey-part-ii.html

  5. Thank you so much for the support – you guys rock.
    Missy Boo – I would give you some boobiliciousness if only I could! lol
    Thanks Caz πŸ™‚
    Doodah, off to check out your blog.

  6. Ditto Missy Boo! Great revelation dear Becky. One I share with you (also only recent!)

  7. Oh gosh YES!!!! Always, always dress the best for who you are right now! It really does make you feel so good you can aspire to be better. I so agree with everything you said πŸ™‚
    And I know quite a few woman who *have* paid to have boob like yours!!
    xxxCate

  8. Great boobs (am I allowed to say that?) I was just watching Trinny and Susannah and I have no doubt that if they could get their hands on you they would tell you just how fantastic you are and just how lucky you are to have the boobs and body you have – flaunt it I say!!

  9. Oh Becky, this post is just so AWESOME!!! I do really think that there is a significant link between feeling better and dressing better! I'm so glad that you've had an 'aha' moment and more importantly, that it's working for you. I'm so proud of you, and yes, I would be flaunting all that boobilicious too if I were you! (That camera necklace is just soooo cute!)

    Thanks for linking up this week. And next week too πŸ˜‰ xx

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