So. This is Happening.
Before the New Year, I was sent an email from Soup asking me if I wanted to try out the Tony Ferguson Weight Management Program. I’ll be trying the step one: New Start portion of the program, which will involve me replacing two meals a day with a shake or a soup from the range.
This needs to happen. Not because I want to look hot, although that won’t hurt. Not because I want to get skinny. But because I need to be healthy. I need to be fit. My size is merely a by-product of my health and as that improves so will how I look, which is neither here nor there for me anymore.
Yes, I will be thrilled to shop and find clothes I love that I could never even contemplate. Yes, I will be happy with the changes. Of course.
If you think you’re experiencing some De Ja Vu, you probably are. I wrote probably basically the exact same thing in September. And I meant it.
Except I was so sick and then so sad and I am still so sad and sore. In my heart and in my belly. Physically. Mentally. Emotionally. I just have to get on with it, though.
So, as I say, this is happening. I have to admit, I am feeling quite nervous. I’ve tried shakes before. I’ve gagged and held my nose and not-so-eventually given up. I hate when they’re gluggy and how that feels in my mouth and going down my throat. If I can’t stand the texture of a food or drink, it’s not likely to make it into my stomach very often.
And soup. Soup and I are not friends. I only really like soups I make which are really water with stuff in it; never thick, or James’ pumpkin soup which is my one exception.
I am excited and nervous. And ready.
I’ll let you know how I go and if I can stand the taste, have you tried them? Tell me they’re not vial…