Throwing in the Towel

In 4 months and 19 days I will be 30 and at this moment, at 29 years of age, I am coming to the realisation that I am a quitter. Or, maybe just a non-starter.

I was pretty excited about my 30 Before 30 list. Pretty pumped. I thought long and hard, so carefully choosing things that I thought I could and would accomplish by June 2013.

To date I’ve done exactly four things; tried to get a funky haircut (#29), which was an actual disaster and still hasn’t grown out (seriously), tried my first cocktail (#3) while going to Gold Class (#8) for the first time and managed to try Sushi (#11).

And, with 139 days left for me to complete the remaining 26 (or 27) I am starting to think I should just forget it all. Which is just annoying, really. Or, maybe I should change the things that probably won’t be realised, but then what was the point of writing it in the first place? Can I do that?

I can probably do what ever I want. Yes? It is my list after all. I just can’t quite feel okay about it. Plus it took me so long to come up with the current 30, what would I replace them with??

Like, I really want to Get a tattoo, in fact it was meant to be my birthday present last year but it didn’t happen and now every time I bring it up or talk about booking in there’s a reason I can’t. I want it, so of course I want it to be included on my list but I feel it won’t happen so I also don’t want it on my list because then I can’t tick it off…

And, I ummed and ahhed about adding Visit Queensland, I made sure to ask James if we would be able to do it and we did some (very loose) planning but now it seems like James’ holidays he would have taken for that might need to be kept for moving again. Yayness. Not.

I can’t help but wonder if I have enough time to Run 5ks or any ks given my current fitness level.

Also, I completely bombed on the whole Win NaNoWriMo thing.

They are certainly not the only four I am seriously questioning.

So, having written the above, I am no closer to an answer – all I know is that I will do one of three things; scrap it all, dig in and go nuts or just re-write the whole thing with easier, more manageable, doable goals.

I should maybe concentrate on finishing stuff in 2013. Maybe.

I’m so annoyed at myself. What would you do? You know, other than not wait until the last minute only to realise you now probably wouldn’t meet your goals.

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  1. Id choose the easiest (or most fun) 5 and do those. Screw the rest – you were only 29 when your wrote it and can’t be held accountable for those actions. However as a grown up of 30, you will be more responsible in your list making 😉

  2. You can take my approach- i made a 40 AFTER 40 list and have tackled a few things in the last 11 months already – no pressure, but the list is there and i even left a few blanks – change your list to 30 after 30 and maybe re read them and see if there are any that are not really right for you – if you want to do them badly what is holding you back etc? as dory would say “just keep swimming” xx

  3. Change Gold Coast to Sydney and come to Digital Parents to meet me!!!!

    I had a great list of things last year for my NYR.. and bombed out of all of them even on the first day!!!!

    Don’t think of it as a 30by30 list.. think of it as your 30’s List and you will get it done 🙂


  4. I agree, stick with the list. You wrote it as you wanted to do the things…but don’t put a time frame on it! Just chip away at it one thing at a time!

  5. I like the idea of a ‘in my 30’s list’ that gives you more time to work on it.

  6. GO NUTS!! Lol.
    Make plans.. Plan one of the listed things with one or more people – I will book in a visit date which will also include your tattoo date

    You’re getting that tattoo!

    I will have to read your list again.. I wanted to do the cocktail and sushi thing with you but I’m sure there’s other ones I can do with you 🙂

  7. I totally get where you are coming from. I have often thought about making one of these lists, especially since I turn 35 soon, however I know that I am a terrible quitter. Or rather I am a great quitter and terrible sticker. The whole in my 30’s list is a great idea. Why don’t you leave it as it is, do what you can and then after your birthday start a new one with what you didn’t do and add to it for some new challenges as well. Fairy wishes and butterfly kisses lovely

  8. This is exactly why I’ve never committed to a 40 before 40 list or anything like that – because deep down, I know I will never be able to do them all. Having said that, don’t give up on the idea completely. Maybe do a 5 in 5 months list and focus on those things that you can do. Don’t think you’re a failure, life always gets in the way and you may have done extra things that were never included on your original list. Good luck!

  9. What would I do? Prioritise. Figure out from my list which ones are the most important. The one’s I HAVE to do or will forever regret and concentrate on getting those done. And believe me, if you want to do it that bad, you will. Then, the others might follow. If they don’t, it’s fine. At least you can say you tried to get the big ones ticked off.

  10. I don’t think you should be so hard on yourself Becky. You have all your life to realise the items on your list. Why putting a date… For the moment, maybe just focus on one thing that for you is the most important and go for it. It can be your special gift for your 30’s.


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