Facing Birth


38 Weeks, or, as I’m thinking of it – 100 years pregnant

I know I’ve written a few less-than-glowy posts about being pregnant over the past 38 weeks but, I am really truly excited about meeting this new bub on Friday. We’re pretty ready, really, if I ignore the crazy nesting part of me that is screaming at me all day or the fact that we don’t have a car to fit us but we’re at least on our way and there’s a part of me that feels like I’ll find my way even if it’s stumbling about in the dark with my eyes closed and arms flailing about wildly.

It was only a day after I wrote about having some kind of mental block in a recent(ish) post that I reaslied what it was, unfortunately, that realisation hasn’t helped me be able to move past my block and focus on less of the crappy-current-pregnancy stuff and more of the oh-my-gosh-I’m-having-a-BABY stuff.

Because it’s hard to focus on the baby bit when you don’t want to have to think about the part where the baby goes from inside your body to outside your body. Jasper’s birth was horrendous and there are a few issues putting me in a higher risk category this time around (ie 4th caesarean, a blood disorder) and, honestly, I am terrified.

Completely and utterly out of my mind.

Thankfully, I have started to feel the excitement and see life with a newborn, which is taking the edge off. Plus, I have enough ridiculous pains keeping my mind occupied (who needs to walk, anyway?).

I’m still so very nervous but I keep my mind on meeting Baby Patch, on the kids finally getting to see their new sibling (it’s been a looooong 7 months of “Mum, when is Baby Patch coming out?”) and of making our way as a family of 6. It’s always been my dream and now, here it is.

If you’re the praying/positive thought/light sending type, I could use your thoughts on Friday if you can spare a moment. And, while James’ job is to update here the night of the birth you will probably be able to see baby pics on my Facebook or Instagram earlier if you’re interested.

Linking up with Essentially Jess for #ibot



  1. an exciting week ahead. Hope it all goes swimmingly well! x

    • Thanks Stephanie!

  2. Good luck for Friday Becky! All will be ok and soon you will have a new baby in your arms. So exciting! I had two caesareans and then called it quits (but I got three babies)! πŸ™‚

    • Thanks so much, Min!

  3. Good luck for Friday- I’ll keep you in my thoughts if that helps πŸ˜€ New bubs are so special!

    • Thanks so much Amy – it’s nice to know people are thinking of me as I get ready. Helps calm my nerves!

  4. Good luck!! I had a not so fun birth, but it is so worth it!! I love the newborn phase. Its so scary but I now miss those days and can’t wait for another little newborn. Enjoy the new addition to your family πŸ™‚

    • Thanks Luisa. I love newborns too! So excited to be entering this stage again.

  5. Oh I’m so excited for you! Can’t wait to hear your news, and I’ll definitely be praying that you it all goes smoothly and well. xx

    • Thanks Jess, I really appreciate it! Can’t wait to share my new babe with you all!

  6. I have written it my diary… and on Friday I will be sending out all the warriors in the universe that I know and love. BIG LOVE MA LOVE xxxx

    • Thanks so much Em! I appreciate that SO much xx

  7. Oh my gosh! The home stretch! You’re almost there. I can completely understand the anxiety. I think it’s only natural. You will be holding that beautiful bub of yours in your arms in no time and be wondering what you were worrying about. Can’t wait to see a photo of the family of six πŸ™‚ #teamIBOT

    • Thank you and you’re so right Renee. I am REALLY looking forward to being in that space where I can shake my head at all this anxiety!

  8. I’m dreading the birth bit too and I’m pretty low risk, but it was so freaking painful lol I’ve got a few more weeks to wait at least but how exciting your family will be bigger Friday. All the best!

    • It’s so crazy that we keep going back, really isn’t it? Sneaky cute babies! Thanks so much Holly!

  9. Good luck for Friday. Squeee! How exciting!

    • Thanks Dani, can’t believe we’re here already!

  10. Wishing you all the very best Becky. My thoughts will be with you on Friday. I was exactly the same with my birth. Even though it was my third, once the really strong Braxton Hicks started a week or so prior I began to get quite anxious about the birth but at the same time I really wanted to meet my baby girl. Soon you will be holding the most precious thing in the world and it makes it all so worth it. Good luck!

    • Thanks Erika and congrats again on your new arrival.

  11. Good Luck for Friday!

    I was also ‘less-than’glowy’ during pregnancy but now as my daughter flies past 19 months, I’m feeling very clucky.

    • Thanks Shannon! They manage to have that effect don’t they and make you forget all the not-so-great stuff about pregnancy and birth until you’re doing it all again!

  12. Wishing all the best for a safe smooth arrival for baby patch. such an exciting time for you all. Thoughts and prayers for you and your little bub xx

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